[Originally written on February 21st 2021. Happy Slave Day!]
“Mindless blabbering about the awesomeness of slavery” is, luckily, something I feel like I could do forever.
It seems fitting that this all began with an innocuous Valentine’s tribute – a way of giving back, for years of free content. And it continued on like that for a while, giving gifts and tribute when needed – the knowledge that I was making you happy its own reward. It was only on a fateful day in March when you suggested we “step it up, kinkwise” that I realised the depth of what was being created. I could’ve refused – could’ve turned you down – could’ve run and hid in nervous fear. But looking back now on what’s been built here… I feel like it’s one of the best decisions I’ve ever made.
And I don’t say that lightly. Everything that’s happened has been another step into a world I didn’t even know I was missing out on. The not-so-custom customs, allowing you full rein over what happens to me – what a wonderful idea, and they’ve worked out beautifully! The live sessions, where you can hear first-hand the evidence of your power over me. The little tasks and teases throughout the day, knowing they’ll keep me on edge and thinking about you all. Day. Long.
Mindless. Empty. Blank. An object, a toy, a thing for your amusement. Belonging to you has awakened me to an existence above simply seeking out pleasure for myself. Being yours – your slut, your sweetness, your dearly devoted slave – and living to serve your pleasure… It’s become so important to me. Your control in my mind, your words in my ear, it makes obeying feel too good to even consider doing otherwise. I could never hope to disobey you – but even if I could, I can’t for the life of me think why I would want to. I ache, I live, I burn with desire and longing and need, all on your orders.
And then there’s the sappier side. Don’t get me wrong – I love the kinky side to death, obviously – but the fact that there’s so much more to it than that is what makes this really special, I think. The support I’ve felt from you, knowing I could always bring up anything that’s troubling me. The confidence you’ve instilled in me – hell, I wouldn’t have done half the outrageous stuff I’ve done if not for you! The trust you’ve put in me, and the trust I’ve put into you – it’s come together to make something that is… just wonderful. And I love you for it.
Thank you for everything that you are, that you do, that you’ve made me. You’re a force of light and beauty and joy in my life, and it has been my absolute honour to kneel at your feet. Happy Slave Day!